Brian you are my friend and I want you to know that I am proud of you, proud to say I know you and I would be proud to have you stand next to me now and in the future.

I do wish you would call me back as I enjoyed hearing your voice but if you are not ready to extend yourself to me in this way - thats okay. I do ask you if you would allow me to write you at your hotel.  You don't  have to write back. I would just like to be able to directly say what I want to you personally - again thats up to you - no pressure.

The last thing I want to do is scare you away from me so if you feel you can't handle it thats cool. I want you to understand that when I wanted to come out there - I wanted to spend some time with you in your realm. I would have enjoyed spending the days with you and being able to accompany you in your daily routine. Your Mom explained to me that you had some valid concerns with me coming there. I understand your feelings and as much as I would have loved to have seen you - abiding your wishes means more to me.